Last year i came to the realization that someone i was once so obsessed over and held up to this standard in my mind. Was actually just your average joe who really didn't care if we even spoke or not. Nothing wrong in being average! But i swore this was someone who seen me and cared for my interests. Overall also gave me a reminder of who i was as well. In a few ways, I know previous toxic relations I've had , have always somehow destroyed or interfered with my friendships with others. But that's narcissistic behavior on someone else's part. Why was i being shamed and blamed for it ? Understandable i try keeping any part of me related to love, separated from all the rest of me. But it's hard getting over someone who you wanted so bad. Very bittersweet, yet beautiful in knowing their doing okay and alive. Yes the communication may not be what it was, but at least God let me get to know you.
Wishing well and biding goodbye <3
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