LaLaLaLa

Sometimes when i catch  myself liking someone i notice how weird i get. I always make things uncomfortable or uncertain. The other person is always like ?????? lmao. I mirror people alot as well. I read up on that and its some disorder or whatever you wanna call it. All i know is i no longer truly care to find a love of my own. I found myself being okay with the comfort of few. Now this isnt me saying lets have a fuck fest. No. Im actually not attracted or i dont actually care to know someone like that again. Lets skip the basics and act like we knew eachother for years and be how humans were suppose to be. The stigma on that could have me typing all night. Anyways, I gotta stop liking people or leading people on. Lately ive just been entertaining anyone and thing giving my energy to mindless relations. In the reality im trying to jugg but to what means ?