I wasn't as consistent on my journey with blogging this year as i have been before and how i first started. But the ride life took me on alone was overly insane. I fell out of love and back in. Then went on a drinking binge for multiple months , lost my dad, became a god mommy, and a lot more things in between that i feel are only teaching me lessons for what's to come.
Previously I've mentioned my feeling of wanting more and knowing love eventually one day. I'm so scared to jinx myself but God , I hope this one is the one. I've mentioned before how i love his vibe and from there we've only fallen more and more in love. Which is crazy, i found someone willing to not only love me but everything i come with. Someone willing to actually put everyone else to the side and focus on the important things and me. It seems unreal and i can't fully let myself trust anyone. Especially after all i been through. We got so close way too fast and i don't want to lose him as quick as i found him. He's definitely put me into my feminine softer era where i just wanna be submissive and love. Which sounds so corny lol ughhh fuck me bro what am i doing.
Some people get those happy endings where they meet someone and they love their kids like their own, build a family and get the happy fairy tale ending. I just pray that's what's in my cards.
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