As the sun still shines , my inferno still burns deep. I could say things have gotten better but at what point would it be a lie and my smile fade? The roller coaster of emotions I've dealt with the past year have been traumatizing. Death and grief are something I've grown so familiar with in the last 7 months.
I tried the love thing again and once again.. a failure in that department. I would've thought this was the one. I was truly wrong. We tried and tried and tried and every single time i cut the flowers in my garden trying to prove i was the gardener. I am devastated to have the knowledge that they've moved on. You were truly the one that got away and i will forever love everything we had together but i am here now begging God and the universe to help make me forget you. I can no longer go on like this.
In all i feel like i have completely gone numb to any emotion regarding wanting love or relationships or anything like that. The thought of sex alone is beginning to become repulsive to me. But ill save that for the next bid.
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