Hello ! To any wild enough to end up here. If youve found this , im either dead, Famous or ive shared this with you. Stumbling upon this google blog and becoming famous isnt something im looking for in all honesty. I just wanna express me. I want my story told. Being such an introvert, having adhd and boarder line bipolar personality disorders, i just cant find a way how. I have like 20 hobbies i guess you could call them. Some good some bad. But i just dont know if their ME. I could be on the strive trying to learn new skate tricks, or sewing a tote bag and bucket hat from scratch for a few days maybe even a solid week. Then im off to soaking in my bed every hour in awake and not at work. The motivational highs and desperate lows. Ill realize i want change, think of it and still soak in the bed until my body hurts from laying on one side, then i switch sides. Why couldnt i do the same with my attitude. When im having a bad mood or feeling my mind start to hurt from the intrusive thoughts, switch. To something more mind pleasing. I dont do enough brain and mind excercises as i should maybe. I need to work on my discipline and so many other things and instead im just stalling myself with everything else. Situations and people. Emotions and thoughts. What purpose will it all serve me ? I just want to find myself and what im worth. Stop giving myself away in situations where i know dont deserve me.
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