Im tired. Of always having to repeat things and there never being a change. Im the only person to blame though for there not being one. I want the most perfect life for me and my children. As right now i may only have one, i am in the early stages of another pregnancy. Another child. Another soul. Another reason. Although i feel like im drowning in my life already , this topped it all off. The everyday stress of thinking , will i be enough of a mother for them? I want a family made with love not accidents or slip ups. I try my hardest to stay strong minded and always fall short to the line. They say the lord takes away everyone you want to show you hes all you will need. Im ready. Im tired lord. Please , hear my cries.