The past few days i have been trying to come on here and be more consistent and have more discipline within myself. Its been hard cause i have since last week. Instead ive picked the laptop up, let it sit by me for hours while i occupied myself with something else that doesnt benefit me in any way. Distracting and Procrastinating facing some self evaluation. I pray for the days that im stable enough to be able to get up at 5 AM , pray and just rethink my dreams , take them all in and be grateful for another day. After, getting up and dominating every task of my day. Starting with a light but healthy breakfast, stretching , working out, reading, writing and planning. Then off to the world to spread love in every way. Waking up my son and family with breakfast , organizing their days for them to make everything less stressful. Loving my life everyday im alive. Eventually ill get there and everything will be worth the journey. But as for right now , were just content nd grateful.