Now as ive previously stated , ive been falling more in love with myself lately and a lot of other people have been too. It's flattering dont get me wrong but oso stressful because im still learning to love myself fully. I came so far from licking love off knives i forgot that the silver spoon to it all starts with myself, I just don't wanna loose sight of what i been fighting for , for so long. Im scared of loving new people but i will always show love. I try my hardest to not LET people fall for me but damn man, i get it lmao. Not even to be arrogant or think im above the rest. I just know a love like mine is different. It's deep when its given out. Not like the regular fuck and duck. I genuinely always end up caring too deep about anyone i love either it be platonically or romantically. I just love to know people i care for are doing good and doing things that make them feel alive and happy. Then i get too caught up with trying to add to their happiness and disappoint myself when things end up one sided. Something i have to comprehend fully is you CANNOT make someone love you back or feel ANY kind of way towards you. I sometimes catch myself thinking "But i did this and i did this , what am i doing wrong?" The reality of it is Nothing. Im Not entirely the problem at all. It's the broken people i choose to love. Forever spreading joy , smiles and love though until i cant anymore! Some people need people like me in their lives just to know what love feels like.
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